The Peak of Loneliness - EP

by Participation Trophy

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02:16
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02:21
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04:15

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released February 27, 2015

Participation Trophy is:
James Manton

Additional Instrumentation:
Drums on Tracks 2-6, Piano on Track 6 by Nick Streeter
Harmonica on Track 2 by Mark Turley
Electric Guitar on Track 4 by Matt Blake
Electric Guitar on Track 6 by Ryan Shannon

Recorded November 2014 at Across the Street Studios in Cicero, NY
Produced by James Manton & Mark Turley
Mixed/Mastered by Mark Turley

Artwork by Hannah Alvaro
Layout by James Manton

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Track Name: Sandcastles
Like sandcastles on the edge of the sea
We cannot last forever
When the tide rolls in washing over you and me
Our walls will crumble

And I don't know what's out there
But the water seems so deep
So much chaos all around me
I'm hard-pressed to fall asleep

I just need to get some sleep...

My mind is ablaze
With thoughts of what's after
I'll call out to the open air
But nobody answers

And I don't know what's out there
But the water seems so deep
So much chaos all around me
I'm hard-pressed to fall asleep

I just need to get some sleep...
Track Name: 451
I was forced to sit in pews each week 'till I was fourteen
There I heard the words of a man I'd neither heard nor seen
He was there when time began and he blessed us with his master plan
Well that never really made much sense to me

Well there's no flood in a world without faith
So when the going gets tough I think I'll make it anyway
I don't need a book to tell me how to live my life
While there's no Hell when we die

I'd like to think we all control our own actions in this life
And I don't need a god above to tell me things are wrong or right
How can Dad think life is swell when he's sure that Mom's going to Hell?
Well that never really made much sense to me

Well there's no flood in a world without faith
So when the going gets tough I think I'll make it anyway
I don't need a book to tell me how to live my life
While there's no Hell when we die

Well there's no flood in a world without faith
So when the going gets tough I think I'll make it anyway
I don't need a book to tell me how to live my life
While there's no Hell when we die

While there's no Hell when we die

While there's no Hell when we die
Track Name: The Mountaineer
I am standing on a mountain of the things that I regret
It's made up of my past mistakes and the things I never said
And on this peak called "Loneliness" I've come to rest my head
But it's only for a little while
And I haven't felt the need to smile
Because I know it won't stop growing 'till I'm dead
Track Name: Not an Apology, but an Explanation
My head is filled with poor expressions of good intentions so that's all that anyone can see
The worst parts of me
I tend to combat minor tensions with aggression and bring all the blame down on me
And that's just shit I don't need

And I am waiting for the day that I can say what I mean without causing a scene
But for now I am working, learning, and trying to grow

I'm not the best at self-expression without mentioning all of the things that I hate
I always catch it too late
Due to failings and rejections self-oppression is the only way I can live
I won't let you in
I can't let you in

And I am waiting for the day that I can say what I mean without causing a scene
But for now I am working, learning, and trying to grow
Perhaps you'll take the chance and reciprocate some of my advances
And maybe on that day I won't feel so alone

And I am waiting for the day that I can say what I mean without causing a scene
But for now I am working, learning, and trying to grow
Perhaps you'll take the chance and reciprocate some of my advances
And maybe on that day I won't feel so alone
Track Name: Hiawatha Lake
Lately I've been feeling like I'm trudging through the snow but it's July
And Central New York isn't always cold
And the past few months I've felt my heart try to explode
Sometimes it comes on stronger but it never really goes

And I'm sitting in a waiting room because it's something I can't fight
And I waited in that desperate room just to hear that I'm alright
I'm not alright...

This is a call to all the actions I've never taken
This is a bottle filled with pills I could never swallow
This is a waste of all the precious time I've apparently been blessed with
This is a thank-you for the stability I've borrowed

And it's an 18-minute drive from here to your house if I take the highway
And my gas doesn't run out
We'll drive through sketchy neighborhoods that your dad would hate and end up at the park
Sit on a bench and tear our pasts apart

And I don't wanna leave quite yet but Matt needs to use my car
He's headed out to Buffalo tonight and his dad's transmission won't get him very far
We've come so far...

This is a call to all the actions I've never taken
This is a bottle filled with pills I could never swallow
This is a waste of all the precious time I've apparently been blessed with
This is a thank-you for the stability I've borrowed

This is a call to all the actions I've never taken
This is a bottle filled with pills I could never swallow
This is a waste of all the precious time I've apparently been blessed with
This is a thank-you for the stability I've borrowed

And I'm dealing with this struggle day-to-day
It's like waiting for a nightmare in the rain
And I'd pray if I believed in god but I doubt that things would change
So I'll lean on you and I hope you'd do the same
So I'll lean on you and I hope you'd do the same
Track Name: Close of Day
I can see the street from my dining room table
There's a couple out walking their dog
And sharing a cigarette between them
Now there's a problem that I haven't got

And I wonder if they ever stop to think about the consequences
That next drag may have further down the line
But I'd do better to remember not everyone thinks the way I do
Most of the time

Perhaps this train of thought is purely pessimistic
But I've never felt a reason I should change
I'd rather see myself as realistic
It's not like it's never gonna rain

And the sun may be shining
But the light in your eyes will soon fade
And when my time has come will I make Dylan Thomas proud
or just slip away?

So board up all the windows
The sky's looking grey
Maybe it's a blessing in disguise
You never liked the beach anyway

We'll spend the day inside
I know a place where we can hide
From anything the world could throw our way

And I might sound like a sucker
But the music's always been there for me
It's always been there for me